Uncertainty, Doubts and What's Next: Let's Talk About It

History's Past

Over seven years ago, I was residing in a small town in Pennsylvania, leading a rather unremarkable life. I was unhappy with my situation and felt trapped, although I had shelter, a job that met basic needs, and a relationship I almost believed was worth maintaining. After visiting Florida a few times, I had a revelation to "MOVE HERE!" Some might call it intuition, others might say it was the Holy Spirit. During one visit, I met an older woman at a ministry group. We talked, and I shared my situation. She asked me, "Who sits on the throne of your heart? This boy or the Lord?" I pondered this for weeks and had a dream. Soon after, I was packing up and moving to Florida without job prospects, considering making the relationship long-distance.

I realized I couldn't have both. The day I packed my stuff; I found out I had been cheated on. By choosing to move, everything else unfolded in an unexpected way. Nothing made sense! I was jobless, had withdrawn from college, and all I had was a destination and a car. I spent half a year unemployed but actively searching for work. Fortunately, God provided financially through monthly dog sitting checks, unexpected refunds from college, and tax returns. No job excited me until a friend from a restaurant in that small Pennsylvania town mentioned an airline was hiring! I applied immediately, and opportunities kept arising. I used to joke about being a flight attendant at 14, and now I've been one for six years.

Present Day

I am confronted with the dilemma of, "What would happen if I lost my job?!" This thought fills me with terror, worry, and stress! Let's face it, you achieve a dream job, house, relationship, and so on, and it all seems stable. Then, suddenly, it slips away in an instant, as if the rug was pulled out from under you, and you realize it's beyond your control. How should you feel? Upset? Worried? Stressed? Angry? Confused? It's awful and heart-wrenching! These are all valid reactions to the sudden loss of something you believed was meant for you.

Thoughts of the future steal from your present.

However, I'm here to remind you that even in uncertain times, new opportunities arise to guide you where God intends you to be! And that is the part that is far better. Psalm 23 tells us, "The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, You are with me and You comfort me." Jeremiah 29:11 says, "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Additionally, Isaiah 55:8-9 states, "For My thoughts are higher than your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts." If this doesn't testify to the goodness of God and His guidance over your path, I hope this little story from my life experience does.

To Summarize

It's hard to accept when our emotions become overwhelming, but eventually, we come to realize that everything falls into place. I want to encourage anyone facing the fear of uncertainty and wondering about the future that, although the path may not be clear now, it will lead to places that need your unique energy and influence. In my experience, I've learned that the more we trust in God, the fewer details we need. That's the beauty of loving a faithful God.

For my readers who may not be religious, I want to say that where there's a will, there's a way! Seek it out, no matter how difficult it may seem. I believe people can achieve what they set their minds to. I was determined to pursue the career I always dreamed of, and even now, new ambitions have emerged, guiding me through ideas I never imagined nine years ago. We are constantly evolving as individuals; just ensure you choose something you love so it doesn't feel like work!

Even when uncertainty is profound, God's faithfulness extends even further!